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Please, ENJOY.
i know i did.

Bailey

Ps. i'm sure everyone who reads this knows who that is, but if, for some reason, you don't, that's Kyle. We're on a break - for now. It may become indefinate. Who knows.

The other day there was this moment where i was lying on the couch and Kyle was kneeling beside me, resting his head on my tummy, and i believe he began tickling me...i'm not sure exactly what it was, and i don't remember every second of this moment, but i was laughing and he was laughing and...i realized that i was happy. Not just satisfied, not on my toes wondering when one of us was going to stop feeling this, not scared of losing everything, just perfectly happy. i don't believe i've had one relationship where i've been happy. Not worried about anything, just living in every second as it happened. It amazed me. In fact, i think i just sat there smiling.

Rowan has started making more and more baby sounds. She'll sit there grinning and pursing her lips, making an "oo" face, and if you keep making "oo" sounds as well, eventually she'll start talking to you, and you can carry on a fairly decent conversation! It's lovely. Makes me melt every single time.

i've also found this new musician named Cara Dillon ( www.caradillon.co.uk ), and she's brilliant. My favorite song is She's Like The Swallow, so far, but there's one song that made me cry when i'd heard it. It's called There Were Roses. It's about Cara and a couple of her male friends, one was Catholic, and the other Protestan[t]. Apparantly she lived in the Northern half, or on the border or some such (County Derry?), and one day the Protestan[t] was killed due to rivalries between the religious groups. In any case, it's quite sad, all about the ending of the war and such. Beautiful song.  i think i might sing She's Like The Swallow for St. Crispin's, if i get the nerve. Who knows.

In any case.

That's about all the news i've got, really.
Sorry it's not much :]

Missing everyone, even, surprisingly, my family ;p
Oh.. did i mention we got another dog? A beagle?
And my sister has named it Bagel?
Bagel the Beagle?
i'm opting for a new name.
Preferably Abby.
Isn't it cute?

Done up to chapter 13, now. Was only at Chapter 6 when i came here. Fairly well, yeh? Getting myself all in order. But i still don't have a mask. Damnit. Nor do i have money to buy anything to make a mask. So i'm rightwell fucked. Any ideas?

Heaps of love,

Bailey

"Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me,
Whispers, "hello, i missed you quite terribly"
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly,
Now there's no where else i could be but here in your arms"

(lmao...almost typo'd "arse" instead of arms. That would have been great.)

Current Location:	SCA House, BC
Current Mood:	happy
Current Music:	Here In Your Arms by hellogoodbye (check it out)

First of all, to address the post previous this one:

             i was in a terrible mess when an ex i've not yet stopped loving came back into my life faster than you can say "there's no place like home"; and what a hard hitting hurricane he is. My mind was in shambles, and i was in no mood - or was it that i didn't have the ability - to sit down and explain myself. 
         Although i would love to be a constant blogger, tracking the events of my oh-so mundane life - HOLD. (-=angrily pushes stray hair out of eyes, then blinks furiously at it when it returns to sit infront of my right bright-blue=-) Okay, so as i was saying, although i would love to be a constant... i had to pause for a few days to get myself back in order, for as most of you know, i'm quite happy with the beau that i have right now (Darling Kyle), and if i hadnt've gotten my thoughts together, chances are i would have (VERY VERY STUPIDLY) pushed Kyle away, as well as Ashi, all because of the firm belief that, in the end, my emotions will get the better of me, and it's better to end it now than when we're both in love.
      See my problem, lovies? 
      In any case.
      i've got it pretty much sorted out. Actually, HE sorted it out for me when, after stating over and over - until it became redundant - how much he adored me, loved me, wanted me, NEEDED ME (this is my weak spot; i'm already aware that he loves me, but i had the fairy tale kind of love in mind, not the kind of love he's looking for...the kind he didn't get from his Mother; i am not his mother), and all that jazz, he proceeded to talk to me about the sexual relationship he's been having with this one "fucking gorgeous body"-- er, fucking gorgeous body? Pause with me and mentally slap him, ladies. You can see how this corrected me almost instantly? (-=pushes hair out of eye again; reaches for hair elastic and notices how hair finally stays where it's supposed to out of fear=-) 
       So that's about it. 
       We're still talking, but after realizing that he's still not quite over his "i'm a demi-god" idea, any hope for him was lost. Which is sad.

Anyways.
     Wanna see an absolutely beautiful black man? And i mean beautiful. Good friend of mine just got back in touch with, well worth the wait to talk to. He's quite brilliant, really, and i daresay he even knows it. 
     Ashi <3 
    Well, Astley Brown III, but Ashi to me.

(sorry Ashi, i had to; you're so pretty!)



   Other than that, the only news is that my poor babygirl has a cold, and i'm in PG until St. Crispins! Sorry, girls, i really wish i could finish masks with you :[  -=tear=-
    But i should go finish burning this CD and do some more homework.

    Slante!

-Bailey / Kitty

Ps. Consider their sink shined.

   

i should be back up and running within a few hours, or a few nights of crying myself to sleep.

sorry for any inconvenience,

management.